{Life}

You know when you lose your best friend how it's the worst feeling in the world?  It's even worse when that best friend was also your lover, your world.  YOU got rid of your best friend because they didn't want the same thing in life as you do.  That realization is a sad day indeed.  It's been almost 2 years since that day and it's still a hard void to fill.

It's also really hard to see people in relationships interacting and think to yourself that you HAD that with someone you loved but you let it go.  Then you remember it wasn't YOU who let it go but him and he let it go without a fight.

You know you still care when your stories all involve him, despite the time that's passed.  When not a day goes by when you don't think of him or think of something to tell him.  It makes nights like tonight feel good when you find out he still misses you also.  Good, because it's a constant feeling.

I had a disturbing dream night before last.  It was only disturbing because of who was in the dream and I won't get into detail about that part.  The dream was a really good dream.  It was kind of sad though because it went through what I want.

I read somewhere a while back regarding the time it takes to get over a break-up.  A month for each year you were together.  I can say that's B.S.