{Suicide}

This is a touchy subject but one I feel like I have to talk about right now.

An acquaintance of mine has taken her own life. I didn't know her well but hung out with her a time or two. She's the second person I know to take their own life and it makes me so incredibly sad but mostly angry.  How dare you put the people you love through this? Do you even know it's almost always your loved ones who have to find your body? Clean-up your mess? Get through their own life wondering why? They have to GET through their life without you. They have to survive the emotional trauma you have put them through. They have to wonder for the rest of their lives if there is just one thing they could have done to help you get through your own emotional black hole.

I've suffered through depression. It's not something I've ever sought help on but maybe I should. I NEVER want to put my loved ones through this though. When I do go into my own depressive black hole I help climb myself out of it by thinking of my loved ones. It's not anything I'd ever write about on here but my personal, hand-written journal gets to bear the brunt of those emotions. I think about my niece, who is more precious to me than anything. She's so incredibly young also that I could not even begin to think of what ending my own life would do to her, especially since we have such a close bond.

Seeing the after-effects of two people I know end their own life, it's just selfish. If you really knew what you put your loved ones through and could see just how much they love you and care about you, I'd bet anything you would think twice about ending your own life.