{Crazy life}

Life's been a little crazy lately.  For my last break, all I did was drink (except for the one day I was at work). It was tons of fun.  I just don't really like going out that much I guess.  I had a talk with a co-worker/friend last week that we weren't going to pursue anything because we work together and because of H. That's fine. I think what bothered me the most though was a small talk with my lead at work.  He asked me what I thought the greatest aspect of myself was.  I'm a shy person anyway, so no matter what I thought I never would have been able to say it anyway.  I honestly don't know what it is though.  I only know that I'm attractive to guys for sex. That seems to be all they want from me anyway.  So, he says you know the aspect D liked the most, right?  My boobs.  Yeah, so he's saying also my greatest aspect is my physical attraction to guys? Thanks. I hate that.  I really do. Other than that, I really don't know what guys like about me, if anything.  I know what I like about myself.  I am happy with myself.  I feel that I'm self-confident (for the most part haha).  I know what I want and what I don't want. I know what I'll allow to be acceptable and what's unacceptable for me. His talk anyway got me a little depressed.  I felt like thanking him for pointing out my greatest weakness and self-doubt to me. What's funny is, as much as I do want a boyfriend for the companionship, I kinda don't because of the commitment of it. I know I'm doing pretty good on my own.