{I'm Lame}

First, the non-lame part... I was thinking of not drinking for an entire month to see how much it would help with losing weight.  I briefly mentioned it to C today and she thought it would be pretty cool also.  D overheard me and bet that I couldn't do it.  I, of course, insisted that I could, and we shook on it.  So, it's official now:  I am going to be alcohol free for 31 days (makes me sound like an alcoholic lol).  Perfect timing with tomorrow being May 1.  :)

On to my lameness... So, I'm really interested in C. I think he's hilarious (my huge weakness).  I had a small crush on R also and, at one point, thought I was more interested in R than C.  Turns out that spending more time with C has made me more into him.  I didn't quite realize how much so until R invited me to a get-together at one of the guy's place.  I initially said I should be able to go but then the more I thought about it, the more I thought I didn't want to because I like C.  THAT'S SO LAME AND RIDICULOUS of me.  C has already said, "I have a rule that I do not date co-workers." WTH is my deal then? Blah.  This is not like me at all to care about what a guy thinks who's already stated he won't date me.

Well, here's something I just thought about.  I told R that we should hang out while sober since the other two times we've hung out we've both been pretty drunk (I know I was anyway). So, I haven't really talked to him since that last drunken time. I figured, if he was interested then he'd contact me. That was a little more than a week ago. The first time he invites me to do anything is to go drinking with the guys? Really?  THAT'S pretty lame. I'm not impressed with that really.  What I AM impressed with is a guy taking charge. That's what confuses me with C; he's done that twice now and I like it.  Gah.

Confuzzeled