{So, I've been thinking...}

I guess this has been bothering me a lot since I'm kinda publicly announcing this (kinda because I only know one of my friends who reads this). So, my friend I had lunch with the other day... I can't be friends with her any more. Not that we were the bestest of friends to begin with. But, she's a negative person in my life when she drinks. She puts us in bad situations. One of the reasons I know she said what she did is because she asked me about a particular situation from the last time we went out almost immediately after I told her what she supposedly said. I knew that was the reason she'd said what she'd said. Well, yes, this did happen but only because you put us in that situation and I was not sober enough to stop it. I blame myself as well. I knew what she was like when she drinks. I knew she made bad decisions. Yet, I let things happen also. I can't even begin to tell you, reader, how many times I've had to look after her on nights we go out for dancing and she gets so obliterated that she can't even walk and I've had to get someone to help me walk her to the lightrail (public transportation) or our car (me being sober enough to drive because I'd only had 1 or 2 drinks). She's been kicked out of establishments twice with me because she was so drunk. The one and only time I've ever been kicked out of an establishment for being so drunk was with her. We almost went up to this {strange} guys condo that he'd said was him and his friends hotel, with 2 of  his male friends before I, thankfully, was able to get her to change her mind. She gave 2 guys (the same night) we didn't know a ride to their place on the other side of town. She took one of those unknown guys back to her place and then left me alone with him. Yeah. And then you're going to judge me? Fuck you, asshole. I'm done and won't be participating any longer, thank you very much. So, I'm done with her. She can make bad decisions with someone else. It's just too bad that it's taken this for me to finally say I'm done with her. I should never had gone out with her that night.  I knew what she was like, I knew it wasn't smart and I most certainly should never have drank anything at all know how she is. I am the idiot and boy have I paid for it.