Not that long ago a friend, rather someone I thought was a friend, said something pretty rude and disgusting to me. I know, hope, he said it in jest but no matter what, it was said and is not acceptable under any circumstance. I was so upset I actually cried; not in front of him or anyone else at work but in my car. Seriously, I was that upset. When he came over to my desk to apologize (pretty much immediately after I left his work area and went back to mine), I could not talk to him. I told him so and said he needed to go away. After a little bit I called him over to my work area (less people around) and accepted his apology. I don't even know if I want to type it - I hate telling others it just bothers me so much. Plus, not many people outside of my work environment understand the type of work environment we are in. Just know it upset me. A lot. I'll never look at him the same though.
Anyway, so I start with that because I have been so dang sensitive lately. It's driving me insane. Part of me wonders if I've always been accepting of what people say to me in jest and now that I don't work directly with them it's beginning to bother me or if it's always bothered me and I just it go (providing it wasn't terrible like the above paragraph).
I've allowed people to talk to me a certain way and it's no longer kosher with me.
How do you go back though?
How do you make what was once thought to be acceptable to unacceptable?
Am I really just being sensitive?
Here's an example I don't mind sharing.
I posted this on Facebook...
I'll get to the opportunity squandered after my little vent.
Anyway, here are the responses so far to my Facebook post...
Now, I am usually the last person who gets upset by someone picking on me. I usually get in on it because it usually makes them stop since it's not as fun if I join in. One thing that has always annoyed me though is one can never have a serious conversation without someone doing what Michael did. Ugh. It just bothers me. I hope he feels better now in some way.
WHY do people think it's okay to say some of the things they say?
WHY would you say something like that?!
(Not so much Michael since his was tame compared to the other guy.)
Don't be disrespectful.
Don't be unnecessarily rude.
You may think you are kidding around but is it really necessary?
I expect better from my friends.
Otherwise, you're not a friend but someone I will let go from my life and do so happily.
I am ready to move on completely from where I'm at now.
I have short-timer's disease.
I know once I get my bills paid off from going to school, I'm pretty sure I'm out.
It's time to move on.
I'm positive I will look for a job in the field of my major.
I feel like a need a change though no matter what.
Another quick topic.
I saw this in my Instagram feed today.
It really hits home because I let my shyness stop me.
Really, I got incredibly tongue-tied.
It was embarrassing and all the way to my car I repeated what an idiot I am. haha
So, I have a tiny crush on a guy who works in my building.
I forget if I mention him or not.
So, I think he's not married but I'm not completely certain because he doesn't wear a wedding ring but that doesn't mean anything.
I have no idea if he's interested in me or not.
Part of me feels like if he's interested then he'll make an effort.
I also think maybe he's shy like me!
Who knows.
I definitely want to know though! haha
I always think of things to say if I see him in passing at work but then I never see him in passing!
While leaving work, I saw him walking to work (we were in the parking lot).
Every single thing I'd ever planned on saying went straight out the door.
He smiled a little and said, "Hey."
I think I mumbled, "Bye."
I'm not quite sure.
I'm definitely not going to go up to him at work and be like, "Hey, I like you."
Not-uh, no way, no how.
It's work.
Gotta keep it professional too.
Another reason I've been sensitive lately too is I've been thinking about my past relationships.
Then I saw this on Pinterest:
This one really hit home also.
I think that's another night of blogging though.
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