{This vertigo needs to go}

Seriously, this vertigo stuff is for the birds. I just want it gone. I'm going to stop taking the clarinex and vertigo meds. I'm just wondering if they are making things worse and not better with the way they make me tired. I'm beginning to suspect this because I have virtually no vertigo spells during the day since I only take those meds at night. I say virtually no vertigo spells because I do have slight versions of them if I bend over and look down. That could just be the sinus infection. I don't know, I'm not a doc. Anyway, it sucks and I'm tired of feeling like this.

Nothing like coffee, OJ, and Pumpkin Spice Pancakes to cheer a girl up!

***Update***

Ok, this time the pancakes were an epic fail. I apparently had the heat too high and the insides never cooked through!!  Blah.  So, instead, I made a cheese and veggie omelet. Kinda, anyway. ;)

{Drinks}

Last night I met a guy from my eHarmony attempt. I have to admit, I was pretty lame. What can I say though? I should've known better. I was still not feeling well at all and had really just wanted to go home and go to sleep. Oh yeah, another sinus infection with ear infection and slight bronchitis. It was also a week from hell. It takes a lot out of me anyway to come out of my shell, it can be done though in normal circumstances. He was ok. Mostly he kept quoting songs. We didn't stay out long. We went to Blue Sake downtown. I was never sure if we were just getting drinks or eating also. We did get some food but not a full meal, which was ok with me. I didn't get alcohol because of the vertigo, so I just opted for tea. He got two vodka/tonics. Eh. Really, it was just ok.

{Food}

I decided to make this baked potatoes casserole dish tonight. We'll see how good it is!

{I feel...}

Sick to my stomach. I hope it goes away soon.

{Fall}

Today I'm going to take photographs of my friends toddler at a small fall festival place. More like a Farmer's Market type of place really. Hopefully, I get some good shots. I think I'll then check out a park or two for some fall photographs. Here's to a good day.

**Edit***

Today was a decent day. Lots and lots of photos taken. I know I got some pretty good ones. Today's beautiful!

{Ladies Night}

Today was a pretty decent day. I actually slept 8 hours after working my night shift. I woke-up feeling pretty tired and was almost angry because I just KNEW it was 11am. Looked at the clock, however, and saw it was 3:50p.m. I was ecstatic!  :)  Went to the gym for the leg workout I missed yesterday, ran into Chris, went shopping for clothes afterward, and got ready for tonight's outing with Leslie. Hoping for a good night out, with lots of dancing!  :)

{People suck}

I'm not sure why people do and say the things they do. I'm not sure why they think certain things are okay to say to others.  I'm not sure why keeping certain things to themselves isn't an option. People are negative and it seems they must say things to try and keep others down with them. One person did such thing and I normally try to keep such people out of my life. I can get pretty down and depressed on my own, without the help of others, thank you very much. I know though, well, I think anyway, that if this person knew how I felt about what they said, they'd feel pretty bad. I like to think so anyway. The other person that responded to their negativity... Well, I've no excuse for them. I can't say I know them really all that well. It still bothers me, nonetheless. My Aunt, on the other hand, I'm not sure what her excuse is. A little snippet of her email to me...

The pictures of you and your DOG are cute. I would like to see a man in the picture instead of a DOG. LOL

I need your new address so I can send you a picture of the kids. ...  Need to stop working so much and find you a good husband. I see S has found her another guy to add to her list. (CRAZY). Well I better get to work dont forget to send the address.

I probably shouldn't have but responded only with, "I would as well." and gave her the address.  Thank you. It's really nice to come home and see the 2 comments made by others and then to wake-up and get an email such as the one above. I feel great about myself. Wonderful. It's going to be a great night. Now I've let others dictate my mood and it may show at work tonight and I'll get made fun of by another co-worker who's sensitive enough to sense my mood. Sweet.

Now I also feel great about myself for having to go online to find someone who wants to be with me.

{Calgon take me away...}

Really, life is good. I'm just not feeling well and my body is really sore from the workouts of the last 2 days. And I'm tired. I never get near enough sleep when I work nights. I'm seriously looking forward to the day I work a normal schedule again. That may be for another few years though.

So, I decided to try out eHarmony. I'll only do one month (which is extremely expensive IMO) because I really do hate the idea of paying for a boyfriend. No, I mean, really that's what we're doing right? I'm obviously ok with it right now since I'm paying for it and I'll see how it goes. It's only been about 1-2 weeks into my account and I'm already tired of it. The whole reason for me even doing it was because I work so much and don't really have a social life right now. When I do have time off it's spent catching up on my place and errands that need to be run. Having to make time to actually go onto my account is annoying me. lol Crazy, I know, but it's how I feel. What's funny is a girl I work with made a pretty good joke about me joining. I told her how I felt about paying for online dating services and she said, "Well, if you do find someone, you can always tell them you paid $74.99 for them!" Funny, right? It's a slow process and really I feel like I'm at the same cross-roads online as I am in "real life" with dating. No one's asking for dates. In "real life" I meet these crazy awesome people, and while they may be interested (and I show my interest), no one SAYS anything. Online, it's question, after question, after question, after question. One guy has asked me out for coffee and I'm pretty positive that's not going to work out. It could be me being picky, but I refuse to settle (hence, the reason I'm still single). So, this guy asks me for coffee and I say sure and that, "I have Friday-Monday off." I ask him what day works for him. He replies back with, "You're only off Friday and Monday?" Um, no there was no "and" or "&" or "/" lol. I just replied that I have all 4 days off. Maybe he misread what I wrote, but it's off-putting nonetheless. We'll see how it goes if I even decide to go now. See, picky.

On a positive note, my new boots should be in the mail today or tomorrow!  :)

Target

Cute, right? AND they were super cheap online at Target. They look similar to the Madden boots I almost bought at DSW. I like this color better though.

{A Good Fall Day}

Dressed for fall in a blue hoody, skinny jeans, and bear paw boots Gandalf and I had ourselves a little walk to the park nearby. The weather was actually warmer than what I expected so the hoody had to go! :)  As we walked around, we came across a few fall trees that were beautiful. I stopped at one shady spot and threw down the hoody for me to lay on. Gandalf then had a frenzied run around me while I held onto the leash. It was quite funny. It was so nice, just lying there in warm weather, with the fall trees about us in the shade. I got some GREAT photos!

 

 

It was good times and I know I wore Lil G out from the way he passed out as soon as we got home!  :)

I also made this Berry Cobbler tonight as well, just to try it out. It was quite tasty but I used too much 7up. It called for 1 can and I used 2 small cans. Doesn't matter though, it turned out amazingly delicious!

Oh yeah! An interesting thing I discovered tonight! The dishwasher can melt items! I began smelling something burning coming from the dishwasher, so I checked it and found this:

How CRAZY is that?!

{I feel so lame}

Tonight, a bunch of co-workers are going out downtown to celebrate a co-workers birthday. I was going to go but as I woke-up from my nap, I didn't feel like it. I know the girl whose birthday it is doesn't really care for me too much even though she invited me. Maybe she got over not liking me much? Anyway, it doesn't matter too much I suppose. I thought maybe I'll change my mind and so got dressed. As I was getting ready to put my make-up on though, I knew I really did not want to go. Besides, I'm not feeling too well. I'm exhausted. I just worked 6 12-hour days in a row. I think it'll be ok. Lol, I do feel a little guilty though.

Me :)

On another note, I already know what I'm going to wear when my friend Leslie and I go out next week. :) She's just recently returned from a 6 month tour in Afghanistan. I'm so excited to hang out with her again! I did discover, while trying to figure out what to wear tonight, that I'm in need of a pair of brown dress boots. These are the ones I'm trying to decide between....

Fergalicious Women's Ryder Knee-High Boot 

Madden Girl Women's Piinup Boot

I like them both in different ways! I wish the bottom boot came in the same color as the one on the top. I think I'm leaning toward boot #2 though.

{Can't sleep...}

My body still thinks it's on night shifts. I took a little cat nap from 9pm-12:30am. It wasn't supposed to be a cat nap, but my body apparently thinks it is. Not cool, not cool at all. My stomach's also a little upset from dinner last night. It feels like I overate but I ate less than half on my plate. Guess maybe it was too rich for having nothing else to eat all day yesterday (I only woke up at 1:45pm yesterday and dinner was at 5). Sooo, I'm gonna make a little snack.

Ranch Crackers

Seriously, I tried them before I put them in the oven... Oh heaven, how wonderful you are! Delicious!!
                                         

{Chevelle is A-Mazing!}

Ok, honestly, I do not remember the first half of their show. I was pretty much black-out drunk with only little tidbits coming through every now and then. We went to The Cheeky Monk first before heading over to the Ogden Theater for the show. What I do know is I had tons of fun. We've got good peeps we work with and who I'd consider friends. I've got pics but I'll have to post them later. I need to drag myself out of my warm bed to get ready for the gym out there in the cold, Colorado weather. Yay.

{Gotta love your family...}

I talked to my grandparents today. Seriously, as much as I love them they also drive me crazy. My grandpa is always on me about not having a boyfriend and when am I going to have kids so he can have more great-grand kids. So, I'm talking to my grandma and my grandpa asks if I have a boyfriend yet. I say no. He's in the background BTW asking this stuff. So, he says, "No?! Why not?" My grandma says, "Because she's not ready." Really? I do not recall saying this ever. He says, "Not ready?! Doesn't she want kids?" My grandma says, "No!" What?!?! I've never said that. I've known since I was like 15 I wanted kids. So then I speak up in THEIR conversation and say that's not true at all and my grandma repeats it. Geez. If I knew what exactly I was doing wrong, I'd do something about it. All I know right now is I work too much to meet anyone. Dating people at work hasn't exactly worked out either even though it would be more convenient! LOL  What's ironic is I KNOW as soon as I do start dating someone, they'll give me a hard time about that too. Mostly, I can see them ALL saying they thought I'd "gone the other way" or something like that. They have in the past. Oh well. What can ya do? Trust me, I'd rather be at home making and raising babies than all this working I'm doing.

I really thought I'd be married with babies right now myself. It's probably why I married so young in the first place and, hence, my down fall.

Anyway, on another note we're about to get some crazy cold weather! Colorado's a beautiful state in the Autumn and I wish it'd just stay that way for a few months before bringing in cold Winter weather instead of just a few weeks of Fall. What I'd really like is some good time off to enjoy said Autumn weather. I've got two very long weeks ahead of me to suffer through before being about to enjoy GOOD time off.

Tired Cat

On a funny note, I have a huge pimple under the skin on my cheek and another in the crease of my nose. Of course I'm entirely self-conscious about it and swear that's all the anyone at the gym noticed. ;)