{Yikes}

It's been almost a week of not taking my b.c. I feel so dang emotional right now it's unreal. These emotions are the sucky, crazy part of being female. I hate them.

{It's true...}

{Life}

You know when you lose your best friend how it's the worst feeling in the world?  It's even worse when that best friend was also your lover, your world.  YOU got rid of your best friend because they didn't want the same thing in life as you do.  That realization is a sad day indeed.  It's been almost 2 years since that day and it's still a hard void to fill.

It's also really hard to see people in relationships interacting and think to yourself that you HAD that with someone you loved but you let it go.  Then you remember it wasn't YOU who let it go but him and he let it go without a fight.

You know you still care when your stories all involve him, despite the time that's passed.  When not a day goes by when you don't think of him or think of something to tell him.  It makes nights like tonight feel good when you find out he still misses you also.  Good, because it's a constant feeling.

I had a disturbing dream night before last.  It was only disturbing because of who was in the dream and I won't get into detail about that part.  The dream was a really good dream.  It was kind of sad though because it went through what I want.

I read somewhere a while back regarding the time it takes to get over a break-up.  A month for each year you were together.  I can say that's B.S.

{Oh, life...}

Well, I did sell the Volvo but it almost didn't happen.  The first lady ended up backing out.  So, the two people came last Thursday to view/drive it and both made offers.  I accepted the ladies because she was the first to make an offer.  On Monday, however, she backed out!  I was like, CrAp!  I took a chance though and text the 2nd guy to see if he may still be interested in buying it IF (and that's a huge if) he hadn't already bought another car over the weekend.  He said he absolutely was still interested.  He wired the money on Tuesday and it went into my account to pay the loan off Wednesday morning.  That night, after work, him and his wife came by to pick the Volvo up.  Talk about ecstatic.  Now, I'm just waiting on the title to come in to sign it over to them.  Woot!  :)

So, I finally kinda start dating a guy but we work pretty close together and after a month he sends a text that he "can't do this anymore" and that we want different things.  LOL I just want to know how we know what we want out of this relationship when it wasn't a relationship to begin with?  The last we discussed we were just dating to see where, if anywhere, it was going and we had not declared it a relationship.  I get that we work closely together but I don't know if I want him in my life long-term or not so I think it's funny that he said we wanted different things.  I'm also frustrated because I was beginning to like him and had even just a few minutes prior to getting his text told my roommate that I liked him.  What a retard I am.

What's worse?  I still miss Glenn.  That's a retarded thing.

{Say it ain't so...}

So, I've had a few people look at and test drive the Volvo but no offers. Today I had scheduled two different people to look & drive. While the second person was looking at it, the first person text me and made an offer! Then the second person made an offer!! Talk about ridiculously happy! Since I spoke with the first person, well first, I accepted her offer. Hopefully, everything goes through! I'm so excited and feel the pressure from this burden finally lifting! Now, I'm hoping everything else just falls into place and I can get the rest of my bills caught up and paid off!!!

New Homemade Alfredo

I made a new homemade alfredo recipe today from All Recipes and I think it's way better than the previous recipe I made.  I have to say, I'm pretty happy with it.  I made a few changes though.  Instead of using garlic powder, I used about 3-4 cloves of garlic.  I also used 1 1/2 (8oz) cream cheese instead of just 1.  It just seemed like it was lacked creaminess.  I added shrimp to mine as well.  I normally use ground turkey/beef but thought I'd make it a little different today.  Oh yeah, I added a little cayenne pepper and Zataran's Cajun Seasoning to it.

{Life is good}

So, the whole roommate situation has still been working out so far. The only issue I have has been getting her to keep me safe by shutting the garage door! LOL  I'm not sure what issues she may have with me yet other than my big mouth. I was drunk and called her easy and said I was being serious about it.  Soooo not what I meant. It sobered me quickly.

Work at LM has being going well so far.  I certified on my first position.  I should probably have stuck with the 

Charles Schwab job though.  At least I was confident in myself doing that type of work.  I have no confidence in myself with this career field.  Bad move.  :(  That's the only issue I really have though with work.  There has been a new development pertaining to work and my personal life but I'm not quite sure how I feel about it yet.  I guess it depends on where it goes.  How it works out.  I don't know.  What I do know is that I'm very confused about it.

Metts invited me to their Christmas Party/Dinner tonight.  Well, this evening; it's at 4pm.  I said I would make an apple pie.  I'm beginning to regret that though since I don't feel like baking.  I've not done much cooking lately.

The Volvo is fixed and I've shown it to two people so far who were interested in buying it.  The first guy never got back with me until like 2 weeks later.  The second person test drove it for her brother and sent a txt saying they were interested in buying it but then when I talked to her on the phone she said he would call me about it, that he had questions.  So, I'm not sure.  I just want it G.O.N.E.

So, I guess I'd best get up and get to the grocery store to buy the apples (and hopefully, an apple slicer) for my apple pie.  I also have to buy a gift for my Secret Santa. The theme is "As Seen on TV."  So, it won't be hard to find, just hard to chose!   :)